HOW
MY STUDENTS KEPT ME FROM TEACHING
The
semester started off bad and never
got any better.
Each evening
as they piled into class, one student, then another, dropped a ten-page
manuscript on my desk and turned to write his name and submission title on the
board. In dismay, I’d see the names and manuscripts pile up. Two or three at first, but by the time we were
underway, there’d be eight to ten. And one day—eleven! I kept stealing looks at
the board, knowing I’d been committed to tons of work at home. More than a hundred pages of line-by-line
editing.
I pretended to
like it, but I didn’t. Eleven manuscripts to read on my stationary bike. But
worse, another class session coming up with no time to teach.
In prior years
I’d known our absolute limit was five or six manuscripts—leaving most of an
hour for concentrated, hard-core lecturing. Hey,
I’d be thinking, I’ve been at this for
years, and there’s so much I need to tell them. When my sessions threatened to spill over with too
many manuscripts, I limited the number they could bring to class. I imagined I
was doing a terrific job.
But this year
I got careless, let the students write all they wanted. And now I was paying
the price.
Funny thing,
though—I began noticing a few students were writing better. And soon, without
letting the thought filter through and become “Geronimo!” I began seeing they were ALL
writing better. Every darn one of them. In class each week, we discussed what
they’d created, and I had the fun of pointing out some unique, amazing, or even
great lines. And then great scenes. Or I found mistakes, and instead of offering
all the corrections myself, I made them
suggest changes.
We discussed
what they’d once done wrong . . . and how the “wrongs” were now going
away.
I never felt I was
“teaching.” I was always just “going
over manuscripts.” And while in prior
years, the manuscripts diminished in number as the semester progressed, this
year there was no letup. My students, darn their eyes, simply wouldn’t stop
writing!
On the last
day I mentioned my regrets to a favorite student. “You know,” I said, “this
semester I never found time to teach.”
She looked at
me in surprise. “Well, you didn’t
lecture much. But those were just words—and
I’m not sure they all sank in.” She
paused. “We learned more by studying other manuscripts and figuring out what
was wrong. And then hearing your comments and the changes you offered—or let us
offer.” She paused again. “Haven’t you
noticed we all got better?”
“Well,
actually, I did. But . . . there weren’t any lessons. No real lessons at all.”
“What do you think ‘getting better’
means?” She looked at me, letting it percolate.
“This was one of the best semesters we’ve ever had.”
“Really?”
“Oh, yes,” she said.
I walked away with one of those cartoon
light bulbs floating over my head. Before I got to the car I was thinking, Well, hot damn, how did this happen without
my noticing? All these students
improving and me fussing about no time to teach.
My husband had come this last night,
and now the car was moving, but I was hardly aware of it. While he drove, I began smiling to myself.
I must have
been teaching after all.
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